Parkie's Paradigm

Sunday, September 21, 2008

oh and ...

this is an example of how hurtful she can be. she went on and on about her two friends having a birthday and how they weren't even going to have cakes because their mothers had said they weren't going to do cakes this year. she begged me to help her get her two friends cakes. so tonight I baked two cakes while she was at Youth so she'd have two cakes to bring to her friends at school tomorrow for their birthday.

when she had stolen the phone and she was standing their defensively her eyes going everywhere and I kept telling her to look at me which she eventually did, rightly or wrongly I asked her how could she repay me for making these cakes by doing something like this right after.

and she said .... YOU didn't do anything. you just mixed and baked them.

I could have cried.

The Art of Disengaging

Disengage: to release from attachment or connection; loosen; unfasten: to disengage a clutch.

I have a mouthy disobedient 15 year old. Anyone that knows me knows this because I talk about it a lot. I hope everyone isn't tired of hearing about it because, frankly, the venting helps me. School started the last week of August. We haven't even reached the end of September and already we have a detention and an in school suspension on the books. It seems she's constantly grounded for something.

Phone restrictions seem to get to her the most but what I have to go through to enforce it is madness. she'll hide phones, she finds old phones and plugs them into my computer area upstairs to talk on the phone after midnight - this mind you seems to be the time when all her friends sneak out of bed and talk. she constantly tries to steal my cell phone and spirit it away to talk on the phone. all this does is extend her phone restrictions. she looks at me and tells me it's my fault because she "needs" to talk on the phone. I look at her and say well follow the restriction and it will be lifted and this won't be a problem. well caught her again trying to steal my cell phone and I had to chase the child around the house to do that because she kept trying to turn a corner just ahead of me and dump it somewhere. her logic - I know - is that if I don't actually "catch" her with it then I can't "prove it". nevermind the fact that I am now chasing her around the house for it. she's gonna try. there's a level of insanity to this.

I caught her and thus started the diatribes - I didn't exactly use it, this is your fault I did this because I need to talk on the phone, this is bogus blah blah blah.

The instinct as a parent is to attempt to point out what she did, why she was wrong, what the consequences are and search for remorse.

When you have a disobedient mouthy 15 year old like mine that won't happen. there will always be a million things she'll come up with for why it wasn't her fault. try to answer her point for point and boom it escalates.

The experts tell you at this point to disengage. State what happened, state the consequence and leave. This is hard to do. To accomplish this you must now ignore anything following that comes from her mouth. much like a three year old in a tantrum said 15 year old will sit there in a voice at the level just so that you can hear but if you turn around feel she can sit there and say "what I didn't say anything". and say things she will. but to disengage you must keep walking and ignore her. you'll want to send her to her room, you'll want to yell, but these are just the things she's looking for. it vindicates her somehow. let's her get angry and maybe with this anger wrapped around her she really can say "they asked for it, it wasn't my fault"

today I did it. I tried to reason with her she became aggitated and tried to start something. dh heard me yelling and got involved. and I stopped and said - state the violation, state the consequence, and let's disengage. say it and go to the back porch. we did.

to sit on this porch and listen to her go on and on was HARD. the reality is you want to march back into the house and throttle her. much like the three year old in the tantrum she eventually gets tired and stops. she heads upstairs.

a minor victory and yet a groan at the thought of yet another week of phone battle.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

the Birthday

Abigail is 9!! She had her heart set on a certain kind of cake. I had never worked with fondant before but I gave it my best shot! It took two days to make and didn't come out at all like I hoped but Abigail loved it so I guess that's what counts.

Happy Birthday Abigail!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

No more Zoom Zoom

the Miata was sold yesterday. it makes me sad. I was teary eyed watching tatto boy drive away in it. why? because I have weird car attachment issues. The Miata and I went through much stress and turmoil so that I could prove to myself I could drive a stick even with my palsy. I'll give dh credit here. He challenged me. He knew I could do it even though I tried to hide. He gave me the Miata for incentive. She was a beautiful car.

Boy did we stall and squeal and buck around the neighborhood for a good few months! She stayed tried and true and I triumphed! well ok - I still have hill phobias. I need to work on that. Still - I did something that everyone told me I could never do. Go me!

So WHY did I sell the car? because dh went out and bought himself a new toy. He told me I could have his old toy or keep the Miata. the new toy being the yellow car in the background there. (how do you like dh's butt? rofl) ponder. ponder. ponder. I chose his old toy. (insert foolish guilt here)

So here's Parkie's new ride:

yes it's the blue one! big bonus - it's NOT a manual retractable top! stick it in neutral, press the button and voila! horsepower horsemower it's a lot more powerful car but the retractable top was the seller! and yeah ok it is DAMN fun to drive!

it has a hardtop that you can snap on during winter. here's a pic with the hard top.

kinda changes the look of the whole car doesn't it?? It's like having two cars in one! It is a whole lot more car to handle. I need to go find some hills and get over my phobia.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Sometimes you hear a song

and it hits you. "You're Gonna Want This Back" sung by Trace Adkins did this for me. It's on the dawg howls if you want to click. I tried autoplay but it doesn't seem to be working. I'd heard the song before and I've always liked it. It was the timing.

Today my daughter Cassie had a school concert. I know I've vented a LOT recently about various issues we've been going through with her and I know that these things are still there. Today, however, when she was done getting ready for her concert it struck me how much older she's actually getting. As she stood with her friends singing I was still feeling maudlin and the the thought struck me that there wouldn't be too many more of these.

When the concert was finished she came and got me and introduced me to some of her friends and they all hugged me. I hugged some of the friends I already knew. It was a pretty day and we sat outside eating some desserts. We had a really nice time. I dropped her off at church for Youth Night on the way back and as I was driving home this song came on.

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

and I AM. She's going to be on her own before I'm ready.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Earworm for my Sis!

For you my sister! crank it!


Here are the rules:

1. You have to post the rules before you give your answers.

2. You must list one fact about yourself beginning with each letter of your middle name. (If you don't have a middle name, use your maiden name).

3. After you are tagged, you need to update your blog with your middle name and your answers.

4. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name. (Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and that they need to read your blog for details.)

P - patient. or I try to be anyway
A - animal lover. I think everyone's guessed that one!
T - truthful. I'm shamelessly stealing that from Hoopy. :lol:
R - raunchy. great word! nice and earthy
I - intelligent.
C - charitable. it's my new goal for this year. I'm active in two ministries and am sub for two more
I - idealistic. I'll go with that one. I'd like to think I'm more that than cynical still in my life.
A - affable

That was hard!